Circular Logic

So this is it, huh?

I dunno.

Of course you don’t, you never know, that’s the whole point to it.

The meaning of life is that there is no meaning?

No you idiot, the meaning is you only see things in retrospect. It’s not that there’s no meaning, you’re just too close to it.

Can’t see the forest for the trees?

More like you can’t see the trees because you’re too focused on the path. Which for you is apparently going in circles.

It’s just a warm-up lap.


Well as long as we’re in the horse analogy–

When aren’t we?

–there are so many really good riders out there, and really good horses, and right now I’m neither. Maybe I need more laps.

Or you just need to get out on the course and fail for a bit.

We’ll that’s encouraging.

You learn best from your failures, a fact of life monkey-girl.

Rar. What if I fail? What if this is just a big mistake and everything ends up worse than it was before?

Then you try something else. The only way to guarantee failure is not to try.

Bullshit, if I stay where I am that’s not failure.


I have good income, good coworkers, great workplace.

But it’s not what you want, it’s what you’re settling for.

Is that wrong?

You have the chance, you’d had the chance for a while, you just don’t want to look at it.

It’s scary.


And possibly destructive.


And for every thing going right I can think of a lot of things going wrong.

Definitely yup.

And you think I should do it anyways.

Look kid, I don’t think, not that way, I’m just a reflection of you, devil’s advocate in reverse, or not. Doesn’t mean I know any better than you what’s going to happen or what to do.

So I’m talking to myself.

More or less.


Martha Bechtel

My name is Martha Bechtel and I write fantasy and science fiction stories, paint small model horses silly colors, cast resin and plaster magnets, code random code (and Wordpress plugins)... Come on in and join in the fun!

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